‚ÄčIt comes
And goes
Horrible pain
Never fully gone
Some days nothing
An old guest
One I abide
Hoping he will leave
But tonight
Pain grips me
Like Satan’s hand
Vice-like
Grabbing my crotch
The core of me
Two years
Endured
No end in sight
I howl at God
Why me?
What did I do?
And then remember
No such thing as God
How can there be?
When this is allowed
There is only
Cause and effect
And whatever the cause
Of this pain
Uncontrollable
I can only endure
Or it’s a bullet in the head